Overdue birthday picture on the top and presenting my all-time favorite idol, Tyler Ward :) 

Sometimes in life, in relationships be it friendship or love relations, I tell myself I have to give up, it's pointless if I live in some sort of misery everyday. Is it me who's bringing worries to myself or is it because of the other half who never made me feel all right about it? Should I give up or should I keep on chasing pavements? For friendship wise, I always tell myself, Let bygones be bygones. Yes, thats the way it should be. Everyone grows up, everyone changes in their own pace, so why hold onto past grudges?  :) 

& Sadly, for love, I have chosen to keep on chasing pavements. It shall be the last straw. I dont want to go home everyday pondering.. all those insecurities... kill em' please. 

I shall learn how to prioritize. It may be just one word, but its a STRONG word. 

Well, on a random note, Dont you find it kinda sick if you always prioritize someone but you never ever get prioritized? Wont you find it annoying when something good to you appears something bad to others? For example, thinking far about the relationship, its a good thing but it ends up as 'I'm thinking too far.. We arent getting married, its still a long way....' 

Sometimes I just cant take such harsh comments, I do and take things very seriously although I had a bad past. But.. am I still treated like a joke? 

Signing off, 

P