Havent been blogging for long cause my comp's down and i'm not use to blogging w/o photos and etc.

It's been a year, in a blink. But I really wish she was still here with us cause it feels so incomplete without her, especially during festive seasons especially Christmas and the upcoming Lunar New Year. How I wish time could go back, everything that are to be done were done.. More time was spent with her . It's not an easy task to stay happy at all times when someone so dear to me is gone.. I broke down on Christmas Day, sitting outside my place, crying so badly cause I really miss her so much..It'll never be the same. 

The bond between my Dad, my 2nd Sis and I became greater. Dad isnt that strict anymore, which means theres alil more freedom already. Quarrels are lessened by me and my Erjie(Second sis) after our Major quarrel. We've both learnt, i guess. So, its actually a good thing? :) It really isnt a good feeling to be at home talking to my Dad and my maid, and not my sibling.. I'm glad everything's fine right now. But Dajie(Eldest sis) is still in Australia.. hmm. Come back soon okay! ^^ And also.. Once in awhile we'll have lunch with Dad and also to sit together in the living room and watch the TV together. Sometimes, I feel really bad when I'm not spending time with Dad and etc.. But nevertheless, I would take out a day per week or two to go for lunch with him and my dearest 2ndsis!

This year, I met Andy and we soon got together. We went through thick and thin, quarrels started to increase but the way we solve our disputes became much better than before. More understanding, more giving in.. a better relationship. We both changed in some ways.. some to the good some to the bad. But still, i'm hoping for the best and i'm still in the process of changing! Really enjoy the times with him, especially with Softy,Gan-no and Kunkun :p His always the sweetest, the one giving extra care in those little things, I love you! :) Also his parents, who are always caring for me in many different ways, his bro who's always asking whether we wanna drink/eat so he can takeaway for us. So heartwarming. Really envy them for being so bonded.. How I wish I would cherish her back then...... :( So..  I will not let any obstacles tear us apart & bby, I hope you'll learn to cherish too! :)

To the topic, friends.. I guess i'll never stop teasing Sarah with Damien, Singyin with her signature nose pose, Joelyn with her jingswee. HAHAHA, oh well thats actually just a random thought. Hmm. Up till now, I dont really know who is actually my good/best friend. I dont even know whether our clique's still a clique anymore. Separate ways, separate thoughts, those lil dislikes here and there.. Never will we be the same with all the positive thoughts, the innocent us, the gullible us, the non-troublematic us that we use to be from the start. Ya? Nothing of us stays the same. Even if any of us tries to patch things up, I know we wont get back together happily. Really envy the friendship bond amongst Cherlyn Singyin Kangqi Jiahui and etc.. How to find a clique like that? Sighs. I've tried quite a few times to make the impossible to become the possible part. To be asking for a gathering over at my place to play our secondary school time games and also for a movie. Is really one night so hard? Thanks alot for those who made an effort to come and those who never failed to come. I'm not shooting anyone, but i really wanna voice out my thoughts because i'm always the one who seems so busy with boyfriend, not being able to attend gatherings when you guys organised in the past.. But why is it time and time again after quite a few times of gatherings I invited you all, no one bothers to make an effort.. YES I will never uds how tiring your work is or your school is or whatever it is, but is it just 1 night so hard to spare? REALLY? JUST FOR THE FRIENDSHIP? Maybe it isnt as impt as before that you can throw aside other stuffs just for some fun time together. So from now onwards, I wont bother anymore! Nevertheless, thank you to you and you and you and if you think its you, who had been encouraging me, cheering me up in twitter/bbm when im down.Thank you very much.. Let's all move on. Love, xoxo.

Oh and not forgetting, a very good friend i've made but had not been seeing each other for long, Nicole Tang Li Er! I dont know when and I dont know how, we started sharing lots of things through this very good blackberry messenger application. Thank you for being such a good friend and a good listening ear! :) Study hard in SIM and strive hard! And dont forget, there's so many fishes in the sea.  Friends forever! :) 

Adding on, the first overseas trip that I went with my boyf and his family! Yes yes this is the very first time i'm going overseas with my boyfriend! Its not really overseas but its at malaysia so.. yeah? Went Genting with em! Love the weather alot.. went down to 14degrees, not really cold but still cold. And it's really above the clouds man! So misty and everything.. really feels good! But time passed really fast.. the 2nd night when I laid in bed, i told myself " Wow, time is passing really quickly man.. Going back tomorrow! :( " But nevertheless, I enjoyed the rides at the amusement park, the Corkscrew rollercoaster, the swing and of course, the companion! :) The hardest part was the journey to and fro genting. Felt really dizzy when I was heading to Malacca from Genting.. totally CMI. I hate planes and now I hate long car rides. After genting, we went over to Malacca to meet up with boyf's uncle and his family. Bak kut teh > Malacca's Chinatown.. I was perspiring like mad, cause all we did was walking and kept walking and walking.. His sons are really cute in many ways and their curiosity, NEVER ENDING QUESTIONS! LOL. And their names are really special, EAN and THEODORE. Being bias alil, love the youngest EAN, bought an electric fan for our own used but gave it to him in the end cause he likes it very much and when I was wiping my sweat, he came over with the electric fan and faced it to me, how sweet! ^^

& So, summing up, I had an overall year. Wouldnt be any better w/o boyf, his family and my dearest family! :)