To be on the edge of breaking down and no one's there to save you.. 

you might think im happy but im not gonna be okay!

this song somehow explains how i'm feeling. Randomly played by Lionel using his macbookpro and felt it was meaningful for this point of time in my life.. 

Was at mac from 530pm or slightly later w Peijun & Lionel, till 8+ Kailee came and we headed to 163 for dinner. Ordered $4.50 meal but i think i only ate like $2 worth of it.. Totally moodless at that point of time. We went to the playgrd to chill but I was lying down most of the time looking at the sky and pondering hard while 3 of them were being nosy people =/ I think i've got good blogs to intro. right guy? :p 

I want this.. i want that.. What i really want.. is Peace with you. Sighs! Looks like its gnna be hard.. 

Was frustrated from the whole afternoon till now. glad things are fine now. Ought to dig out all my past and think hard before anything goes wrong only. And yes, i'll mark your words.

Tmr will be a better, hopefully.