How I wish that, before i knew anything, you already told me eveything.

The feelings sucks big time when something you totally loathe, something that you really didnt wanna know, you found out yourself instead of being told. Sighs..

I got so upset just now. My heart sank all the way down.. That feeling, please do not return back to me. Are things getting better now? I dont wanna do it in a forceful way.. Cause if you've got the heart to, you would have already....... No point doing it only after you've realise how upset i got. 

Hope things would turn out better later on.. Seriously. Like kinda emotionally breakdown.. Plus i'm very drowsy after eating my medicine. Sighs. how?